HER mind. HER thoughts. HER say.

2009-07-02T21:58:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK!!!!
yes B.A.C.K!!!

trying hard to update.
hahaha.
aniwaes,i've been going thru shitty life lately.
hmm...mmmm...
yeah.
1stly,i'm sad as dearest Dr Loo is going away.
appearantly not going far away.
juz tat he's no longer doing the prosthodontic cases animore.
so i juz miss those times assisting him lah.
hearing his Chinese songs tat makes me memorize de lyrics n musics.
pampering him wid his needs at work.
getting force to eat together before he left.
and wash his plate for him.
sharing stories like B.G.R stuff.
hahaha.
and whole lots more.
damn!!!
i'm gona miss it.

2ndly,life's a shit!!!
especially wen u ACCIDENTALLY and COINCEDENTALLY bump onto sumone whom u dun wana see at all.
how shit can tat be,uh?
wen tat sumone can juz smile at ur gerlfren and not even say any single word to u wen tat sumone walk pass rite next to u!!!!!!!
in juz seconds people change and move on fast.
watever ah!!!!!!
itz damn hurting but i prove it to u tat one fine day wen i manage to get up on my feet again i'll be more happier.
thks SUMONE!!!!

3rdly,i'm wid Dr Kenneth Tan now.
woohooo!!!!
tat Korean look doctor tat i always like to see.
hahaha.

and of course last but not least.
I CHANGE MY HANDPHONE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!
wooohooo!!!!!
AT LAST AH!!!
manage to get rid tat touchy touchy phone.
but sad to say i didn't manage to get de price tat i wanted ah.
sumhow de price given to me was reasonable enuf for me to re-consider.
so i trade in tat touchy hp to E71.
ALL BLACK.
yup!!!
it was a hard decision but worth it ah.
so dear kashz(hahaha).
i tgh tunggu u nie.
biler u nk tukar?
u masih ingat tk perbualan kiter dahulu?
hahahahahahahhahaha!!!

Azedz.
kalau bace tu jgn senyum sendiri.
suka nah senyum sendiri.
tahan2 ketawe.
hahahaha.

ouh people!!!!
noe wat?
i'm dying for PRAWN FISHING!!!!
SEXY GORGEOUS OLD MAN.
mane PRAWN FISHING i???
mane ehk???
hahaha.
woitz!!!
i'm waiting ah.
for tat 'romantic' small prawn bbq tat u told me.
hahaha.
*bluek*

long gone

2009-06-27T10:11:00.000+08:00

like most of my gerlfrenz told me,'blog kau da mati ehk?'or 'wat happen to ur blog? pls update.'or 'u haf not been updating my fren.'

haiyo!!!!
LAZY.
TIRED.
NO TIME.
any valid reason i can't think for now.
but maybe if it happens again i inform u gerls okies.
hahaha.

wat can i update after so long?
hmm.
ouh yeah.
i kept telling my frenz how i hate to sign up for facebook n stuff.
n even my frenzter i hardly check unless sumone comment or request.
and having frenz tat can reali bugged u n psycho u end up i did make one for myself.
thks to all my frenz around me who have manage to brain wash me.
and especially my dear fren,Nizam.
who willingly wana help me wid it.
yessah!!!
thks ah,Zam!!!
that stops u from staring the 4 walls.
hahaha.

and yeah i finally graduate!!
yup.
waiting for the moment.
and finally it happened.
so waiting for the time and moments where my gerls and i be called up to sign new contract.
AND!!!!!!
to noe our new PAY!!!
hahaha.

i need to shop people.
i badly do.
and i'm waiting for Nizam to tell me wen his fren's bringing in new clothes.
coz i saw tis black tube dress.
and thks to him i fall in love wid it.
and he makes me feel like shopping.
haiyo!!!!!!!!
hahaha.

ouh yeah.
speaking of shopping.
i badly wana sell my new LG Renoir.
yes!!!
can't stand touchy touchy screen.
thou last time i myelf very itchy finger wana get it.
and now wen i owned it i felt like changing.
to undecided hp.
well.
dearest Azedz(my kashz. a love once gone now itz back. hahaha) sumhow have decided what to get.
and i dun.
we tot of getting de same hp.
but she told me the phone we wana get not good enuf.
haiyo!!!
chialat sia!!!
so she is sticking to her decision.
tat is E71.
hmm.
my bro ask me to get that too.
but seeing Mardidz using W980(i think ah) looks great to me.
but my bro object to my decision.
and brain wash me to Azedz choice.
so how now?
still undecided.
and i wana sell my hp for $400.
can?
too much?
yeah.
k lah.
bid from $300 to $350.
any takers??
hmm.

2009-02-21T18:53:00.011+08:00

de day wen 4 of us went karaoke-ing at de new Cash Studio over at Cuppage.
wen's de next one gerls?
a date juz de 3 of us.
widout Ain's Mr Romeo.
hahaha.

Ain. Maz. Ati.

couple paling JIWANG lah. YAN n AIN. akan ku ingat nie pic Ain. dgn pantas nye Yan letak mic pose ambek gambar. hahahaha.

yesterday went to watch He's Not Into You wid my deary niece.
itz a MUST to watch.
a great,sad n funny show.
go watch it wid ur gerls or ur partner.
worth de money people.

guess wat??
counting down to my big day in 3 more days.
MY BDAE!!!
yeah!!!
turning 23 years OLD seh!!
hahaha.

term break is nxt month.
waiting impatiently for my trip wid my gerls to Tioman.
all plan up n can't wait for de day to come.
enjoy ourself to de fullest.
woohoo!!!!!

to precious.
i must admit i miss u badly.
i wonder how my bdae tis year will be wid u.
i dun expect anything from u.
but i hope we cud haf a memorable nite together.

to my dear fren Wan aka Fazril.
u got to go thru alot of hurddles before u get wat u want.
maybe one day u mite achieve wat u want.
be patient my fren.
u got a long journey to go.
*winkz*

dear Azedz.
if u reading tis juz wana say congrats for getting sick at last.
i hope u noe how shitty it feels to be in tat state.
hahahaha.
get well soon i c u at work ok.
take care n be staborn always.
for not taking ur medication.
hahahaha.

I MISS BESTIE.
n how dumb can she be wen she tot i'm mad at her.
crazy gerl.
NO I'M NOT OK!!!
in fact i miss u.
hahaha.

LETZ PLAY TO BE A PRETENDER.
IF TATZ WAT U WANT.
she can bitch for all she wants.
i dun gif a shit anymore.
so letz us PRETEND ok?

2009-02-13T12:59:00.002+08:00

juz wen i tot.
hmm.
dun u tink u juz a kiddo?
watever lah ehk.
i dun tink others wud reali care.
except for UR OWN COMPANION.

itz ok wid me.
keep reading mine.
thn u noe wat sort of person u r.
i dun need people like u to destroy my frenship or my life.
go ahead n bitch bout me or others.
WE DUN FUCKING CARE.
seeing u juz piss me.
wid tat attitude dun expect a red carpet to be laid for u.
NO WAY!!!!!

FOR UR INFO!!!
NONE LIKE U.
EXCEPT UR OWN PEOPLE.
WHICH I GUESS THEY R JUZ A KID LIKE U TOO.
GROW UP OK.
GROW UP.
DUN APOLOGISE AND PRETEND.
I DUN NID IT.

wat a shame.
knowing u last time.
tot u different.
end up u a bitch.
itz a sad thing.

2009-02-06T22:20:00.002+08:00

i miss u.
i will always do.
ur presence seems to be everywhere i go.
i hope u miss me too.

itz so shitty wen Dr Chua's box got lost.
for no reason i juz duno how.
tat irritating lady juz stood up n ask me as though i did it on purpose.
HELL NO!!!
i'm not like her.
i dun 'sabo' people like tat.
and de thing is i can't remember anything!!!
coz itz almost to a month!!!
wat de heck!!!
i feel damn shitty seh.
and i cried!!!
YEAH!!!
i did.
haiz.

thks to YATZ n AZEDZ.
we went to Vivo to haf dinner n brought back memories tat we haf lost over A BIG MISUNDERSTANDING.
and now since Yatz haf told us,
i'm glad tat we reveal our secret.
hahaha.
COZ SERIOUSLY.
WE ARE A BUNCH OF PEOPLE WHO DUN EVEN FUCKING CARE BOUT WAT OTHERS SAY OR DO.
WE DUN LAY TAT FUCKING RED CARPET FOR PEOPLE TO BE WID US.
AND WE DUN FUCKING CARE BOUT PEOPLE BEHAVOURING LIKE A CHILD.
JUST PUT IT TIS WAY OK.
WHY 3 OF US CAN STILL TALK N LAUGH LIKE MAD COZ WE DUN FUCKING CARE!!
SHOWING OFF IS SUCH A KIDDO!!
TRYING HARD TO KEEP A SECRET IS SUCH A BITCH.
FILLING IN DE BLANKS IS A DESPRERADO!!!

we are bunch of nice people.
u dun regret being wid us.
BUT!!!
if u stab our back wid ur gossip n making up stories,
then u gona get it.
till now i'm juz waiting for tat particular sumone to cum n see me n apologise.
i can't stand de rumours tat spread bout me.
especially wen i dun gif a fuck about aniting.
DUN PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH BITCH.
coz of her bitchy smelly retarded mouth people tot it was me.
WEN IT WASN'T EVEN ME!!!
i hate u.
i forever hate ur fucking face.
u owe me an apology.

2009-01-31T14:53:00.003+08:00

so yesterday was de last day for me.
last day working for Dr Chua.
it was sad.
i had a great time working wid him.
thou itz tiring but worth it.
learnt alot and gain sum knowledge.
THANK YOU DR CHUA.
for teaching me and let me gain de knowledge.
looking forward for de next time working wid u.

n so next week onwards i will be at different levels.
wid different doctors too.
BUT.
i will heed Dr Chua's advice.
it was a good advice wen u are learning new things.
n i agree wid it.
so i will be moving around up and down.
wid my stuff in de locker.
n..n..my new air freshner.
hahaha.

today is a boring day for me.
i dun tink i b going out.
since last nite i got hm ard 11 plus wid de boy.
i guess i wana rest n sleep.
too tired.
*winkz*

TO MY DEAREST BESTIE.
THKS FOR EVERYTHING.
AND THKS ALOT FOR BEING THERE FOR ME.
I HOPE I WILL MAKE DE RITE DECISION BEFORE I DO ANYTHING.
I DUN WANA LOSE ANYONE OR ANYBODY.
AND NOT EVEN U.
U'RE DE BEST GERLFREN.
LOVE YA.

JUZ U & ME

2009-01-26T14:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

yes.
itz bored wen most of the shop closed for 2 days or so.
there's no where to go except for parks,watching movies or karaoke.

KARAOKE!!!!
yup.
meet bestie at Bugis.
she's late as usual.
hahaha.
then off we headed to Naz wedding.
congrats Naz!!!

we suppose to go to another wedding function.
but we skip it.
as bestie dun even noe de bride's parents.
bad bad bestie.
hahaha.
so we decided to go to karaoke.

lucky it was open on de eve.
so we rush there wid our heels.
and itz killing our feet off.
ask Ain shorty to join in wid her boify.
but last minute she can't.
hopefully next time ok PENDEK!!!!
ingat tau aku tunggu nie.
hahahaha.

so only me and bestie.
sing our lungs out.
as itz Avril's day.
so most of de songs we sang is from her.
had a great time.
singing all de way.
laughing to de words tat spell wrongly.

it was fun.
totally.
looking forward to de next round wid PENDEK.
hahaha.
impatiently waiting.
anw,we didn't reali cam whoring.
as we both busy singing and choosing our songs.

headed back home as bestie is wid boify.
and since my family had a small bbq i juz went back.
ouh yeah.
i'm still reading tat book which Lyn bought it and lend it to me.
i'm so into it.
and kept reading it.

well.
tatz all for now.
*winkz*

A BITCH WILL ALWAYS BE A BITCH.
I'M JUZ WAITING FOR TAT ONE DAY TO TELL HER STRAIGHT IN HER FACE,
'STOP BITCHING AND BE SUCH A LOSER. DUN MAKE ME TELL YOUR COMPANION WAT A BITCH U ARE. DUN PRETEND TAT U ARE PRETTY WEN U ARE NOT. DUN PLAY HARD TO GET WEN U ARE NOT.'

2009-01-24T12:50:00.003+08:00

at last a long weekend for all of us whose been working hard tis week.
haha.
to all Chinese celebrating Chinese New Year,
Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!
n tat goes out to Azedz who will be collecting her 'hong bao'.

while she's not well yet,
i was still assisting her doctor.
it was funny at first.
but she's a great doctor to work wid aniwae.
she will teach u her way of things tat she wants.
and kept repeating it till u noe wat she wana say.
and yesterday was funny.
Dr Lim and Dr Chua actuali argue rite infront of their patient(or a fren),
over a light!!!
YES.
a light tat appear to be on but wen u step onto the pedal no water come out.
n there they are arguing bout it.
it got me and de patient laughing.

and yestersay after work went out wid Lyn n Ct.
walk to Clarke Quay.
waiting for her.
and we actuali walk all de way from there to Marina Square.
to haf an undecided wat to eat for dinner.
end up we ate at Thai Express.
food was great.
it was full filling.
pictures haven upload yet.
very soon after i get it from de gerls.

tomoro meeting bestie.
YEAH!!!!
can't wait for it.
will be going to Naz wedding and after tat we will hang out.
woohoo!!!
more pics will be taken tomoro.
do wait up ok.

and people!!!!
today is exactly 1 MONTH to my bdae.
YEAH!!!
getting older and older seh.
but i haf a young heart.
hahahahahahahahha.
counting down to my bade n my term break.

P/S: to Lyn. thks for buying tat book and lend it to me first.
thks so much. appreciate it. thks!!!

2009-01-19T22:27:00.002+08:00

NUR AZERA BTE JOHANA.
please realize it ok!!!
dun make me go thru dun forget de lyrics wid u ah.
having fill in de blanks is DAMN IRRITATING!!!!
hahahahaha.

day working wid Dr Chua is funny today.
2 patients cancel de appointment.
so i got like at least 1hr free time or so.
guess wat my doctor makes me do?

in full PPE (Personal Protective Equipment) and blur like 'sotong',
i juz stood there in de room not knowing wat to do.
wen he left n realise i wasn't behind him,
he came in n say,"eh,come lah".
so i quickly de-gown and ran after him.

first time entering his personal room,
i was fascinating his nature photos collection.
and he stop me from being so and rush Halimah n me to pack ORANGES for him.
YES!!!
PACK ORANGES SEH!!!
hahaha.
then distribute it accordingly.
and everyone gets to bring home 2 oranges.
YEAH!!!!
hahaha.
itz funny how working wid him.
i learn alot.
and at de same time i realise working wid him is GREAT.

anw,i intend to buy LG Viewty.
for $418.
wat do u tink?
x1 is way DAMN EX seh!!!
hmm.
any suggestion?

ouh yah.
my bdae is cuming soon next month.
and seriously.
i dun reali expect anything from anyone in particular.
yeap!!
coz having tis damn recession.
no one can waste their money on anything seh.
hahaha.
so itz ok.
wat matters is de totz tat counts.
so Azedz.
u noe wat i'm tinking now.
hahaha.
so watever it is juz dun do tat lame thing for me ok!!!

YES!!!
de totz tat counts.
BUT!!!!
juz dun ok.
hahahhaha.
juz stop it.
i'm sorry.
hahaha.

PEOPLE!!!
I'M COUNTING DOWN FOR MY TERM BREAK IN 2 MONTHS TIMES!!!
please make de day come very soon.
anxiously waiting ok.

2009-01-18T18:17:00.002+08:00

life juz got to move on.
to tat bitch out there.
GROW UP N STOP BITCHING.
I DUN FUCKING CARE IF U GOT WAT U TINK U HAF.
COZ SEEING U MAKES ME TURNS OFF.
N ONE THING FOR SURE.
DUN TRY TO MAKE IT A SECRET WEN OTHERS ALREADY KNOW WATS GOING ON.
LASTLY.
PEOPLE DUN GIF A SHIT ABOUT U OR UR LOVE LIFE.
GROW UP BITCH.
JUZ GROW UP!!!
U NOT MY KIND.

my bestie's words and advice.
Lyn's words n advice.
dad's words n advice.
makes me realise tat i need a big change.
yes.
i will.
n i do it.
thks to u guys for making me realise wat tis world can be.
wat people can be towards u.

for once i noe.
i have a career.
i have money.
n i have HIM.
so tatz matter.

anw,my next outing is coming up in March.
wid de Doubly Duets.
hahaha.
so i'm looking forward to tat day.
going wid de classmates for de last time before we graduate in May.
gona miss class.
n de good times.

ouh ya.
been working wid Dr Chua.
hahaha.
funny.
very funny.
but it was fun lah.
working wid him is great.
alot i learn.
but tiring i must say.

and yeah.
planning for a movie marathon wid de best gerls at Level 5.
yup.
Azedz,Liyana and Siti.
yes.
alot to watch juz plan for tat big day.
*waiting impatiently*

looking forward to see my bestie very soon.
miss her much.
hope she doing alrite.
miss u babe!!!

to Sha.
thks for dropping by.
n sori for not being a faithfull blogger.
hahaha.
i try my best if i haf de time ok gerlfren.
hope u doing GREAT wid tat cutie of urs.
*winkz*

2009-01-04T13:06:00.002+08:00

came back from KL a week ago.
pics haven upload yet.
sum wid Mardidz and Yatz.
mine juz not upload yet.
anw,trip was great.
KLCC and shopping.

end of 2008.
and a new start for 2009.
alot of things i need to achieve tis year.
and de most important thing is to SAVE up.
YESSS!!!
SAVE!!!

i've been shopping around alot.
buying unneccesary stuff.
well.
not reali unneccesary lah.
i still can use it.
but i juz shop alot.

lessen it down gerlfren.
or i can juz go broke.
NO WAY!!!!
anw,hillarious things happen during de weekend.
firstly.
my Friday nite was crappy,funny and awesome.
met bestie after so long.
i mean since de day i got back from KL.
met her at Bugis.
for SHEESHA!!!

well.
it was suppose to be great like de first time we went.
BUT....it turn out sucks!
and funny.
hahaha.

tis time round both of us felt weird after sheesha-ing.
after few puff our heads got so heavy.
and our vision is blur.
is as though we are drunk.
but we are not!!!

bestie felt like puking.
and i can't stand de atmosphere animore.
so i make bestie shut down her lappie.
make payment.
and get out from de place soon.
both of us are walking like a drunk peepz.
and suddenly!!!
bestie puke.

yup.
i was shock and even de guy run away from de place tat bestie puke.
she puke almost everywhere.
and end up sitting down to cool down.
few minutes later.
taadaahhh!!!!
mine turn.
juz as i was standing up to walk off.
i puke.
almost everything wat we ate came out.
there i was puking.
and bestie make joke blaming everything tat had cause us puking.
hahaha.

sat down for awhile.
and off we go to Bugis Junction to get ourselves de sweetest and sourish plum.
while walking there i was a little tipsy.
sweet bestie wrap her arms around mine and make sure i won't fall.
aaawww....thks sweets.
i love ya for being there for me.
*winkz*

so we end our day eating de sweet and sourish plum before going home.
tat help us from getting tipsy a little.
and we got separated from there.
my Friday nite wid bestie was worth it.
love it to de bits.
next one bestie??
hahahaha.

and Saturday.
i woke up at 3pm plus.
had a great time sleeping.
got a call from an unknown number.
and it was Azedz.

wake me up and meet up for SHOPPING!!!!
hahahaha.
went to Expo.
for the Metro sale.
and Crocs sale.

fortunately.
de Crocs sale was a disappointed one.
left wid big sizes.
limited colours.
it was boring.
end up i shop for a halter neck top.
AND....chocolates.
yes!!!
Azedz and i shop for chocolates.

itz funny how both of us went to de sale juz for chocolates.
and others shop for clothes and stuff.
hahaha.
tot of watching movies.
but de timing was all unavailable.
so end up we went to Vivo.
craving for Fried Fish Soup.
had tat for dinner.
yummy!!!!

later.
we went to PS.
and shop at Cotton On.
bought a golden shoe and a bag to stuff all de things i bought.
it was so worth it.
walk around at PS.
went to Times.
survey sum books.
and there Azedz make a blur joke.

Azedz: Will u be there?
Me: Yes,i will.
Azedz: *silence*
Me: Will u?
hahahahaha.
it was so funny how she kept quiet.
and for her to get de joke she make.
hahahahaha.

we walk around PS till de place closed.
we got separated at de mrt.
and off to home.
it was a great day shopping.
had a great time wid Azedz.
we laugh alot like there's no tomoro.
hahahaha.

oh ya.
i need sum suggestion here.
or more like an opinion.
u noe having a blog is like letting others to read wat u wrote.
and if you wana make it so secretive mite as well get a book or a diary and keep it to urself rite?
so tell me.
anyone wid a great suggestion.
don't u think having tis blog u shud juz be open n name it?
y must u hide wen others already noe who u trying to say?
well.
tatz de end of my entry.
till i update again.
tooddles!!!

LET PICTURES SAYS IT ALL

2008-12-15T12:08:00.013+08:00

DE DAY OUT WID MY BESTIE. SO MUCH IN LOVE.

WID DE GERLS DURING CPR COURSE & 05 DEC O8 DE NITE I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER.

DE NEWLY HAIR CUT WID DE GERLS DURING PRACTICAL LESSON.

AFTER DE HAIR CUT & OUT WID DE GERLS.

MEMORIES WID DE LONG HAIR & DE GERLS IN CLASS.

2008-11-19T22:39:00.002+08:00

WOOOOHHHOOOOO!!!!!
de day i've waited for sooooo loooonnnggg!!!!!
and now it has come to an end.
YYYYEEEEESSSSSS!!!!!

my major exam ended juz now at 815pm.
yes!!!
now i can destress.
and i can sleep through out my weekend widout even thinking bout any exams!!!
YYYYYEEEEEESSSSSSAAAAAHHHHH!!!!
hahaha.

and bcoz of tat i had my so called mini celebration.
which is to have dinner at Mac.
YES!!!!
i crave for Mac while assisting and stressing myself for de paper.
now tat itz over i had Filet Oh Fish meal wid Hot Fudge Sundae.
mmmmmm....mmmmmm....
hahaha.

okies.
i'm juz too hapi it ends.
so now wana sleep.
tomoro work seh.
till thn.

2008-11-15T23:23:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK!!!
yes!!!
i am.
itz been daaaaaarrrrnnnnn long tat i update or post or blogging.
due to bz.
lazy.
knowing no one wud read.
so i decide not to update or post or blogging.

BUUUUUTTTTTTTT!!!!!!
i was SHOCK.
yes!!!!
shock.
coz sumone hint me sumting tat day.
wen we went out for dinner.
hahahaha.
YES!!!
AZEDZ!!

if she wudn't haf told me or hint me.
thn i dun tink i be updating or post or blogging now.
hahaha.
hmm.
n today she actuali went to de Crocs sale.

kol her up to ask how's de sale.
n she told me it was super crowded where these people juz crowd around tat particular area to get wat they want.
n yes of course itz damn cheap.
prices was on 80% off.
n itz like 20 to 30 bucks or so.
yupz.
super crazy Crocs sale.
but worth it i must say.
n yah.
Azedz went to get sum pairs home.

unfortunately for me i wana go BUT due to my brother's laziness
i did not get to go.
if only HE's not working i mite be going wid him.
toooooo baaaadddd.
haiz.
i'm missing tat super crazy Crocs sale.
haiyo!!!!

i guess my dear Azedz can haf her mind and soul at peace.
hahahaha.
getting her Crocs tat she wanted for a reasonable price!!
good job Azedz.
i'm proud of u.
hahaha.

ouh yah.
tat Thursday went out wid her.
we actuali check out sum stuff.
like sandals (tat Azedz wana get for the trip).
n of course HANDPHONES!!!!!
YESSSSS!!!!
handphone.
i'm in need to get a new one.
coz now my phone is trying itz best to find fault wid me.
n itz about time for me to change.
which i duno wen.
most probably in December?
where they say during tat month Christmas is coming.
so they mite be having sales.
hmmm.

till now i haven decide wat phone i wana get.
LG?
Samsung?
HTC?
Erisson?
Nokia?????
hmm.
i duno seh.
wat shud i get?
looking thru most of de phone tat day wid Azedz
makes me becomes more fickle minded.

well.
wen de day comes i hope i cud make up my mind n get 1 for myself.
i'm juz in need a new handphone.
n daddy was so nice to keep few pages of handphone for me to see.
n ask me which one tat i wanted.
at the end NONE i wanted.
n he told me to wait for December to come.
haiz.

knowing tat December is juz few weeks away.
yet i am being impatient.
YESSSS!!!
tatz me.
i am being impatient.
if only i am rich i wud haf juz buy wat i want.
but tooooooo bad.
i'm not tat rich.
so i juz got to wait IMPATIENTLY!!!!
n i hope wen de time comes my brother can get me de phone i want.
hehehehehe.
*winkz*

*yyyyyaaaaaaawwwwwnnnnnnnnn*
damn sleepy seh.
de whole day surf de net.
n NOT STUDY FOR DE VERY UPCOMING EXAM NXT WEEK!!!!!
watz got into me?
i duno.
i'm juz lazy.
i study only de nite before exam.
ok.
it sucks.
but itz juz me.
hahahahaha.
nite.
nite.

2008-09-24T19:39:00.002+08:00

FOOOOORRRRR SSOOOO LOOOONNNNGGGGGG.....
now then i update.
alot happen.
but too much to post.
hahaha.

aniwae,if Azedz dun tell me off to update i dun tink i will.
i've been so bz wid my life n skol.
work n stuff.
tooooooo tired ok.
now then i manage to update.

well.
fasting month is gona end real soon.
and i juz can't wait for HARI RAYA!!!!
yeah!!!!!!!

so tis Sat going to do my hair.
n get my contacts.
then off to Geylang to get my baju kurung wid boify.

hmm.
now i feel like going to sleep.
almost falling asleep during Nurse Anne class.
my eyes can't take it no more.
sacrifice de entire 1 week doing my presentation.
at last today is de day it end.
presentation over.
get my result on de spot.
THANK GOD!!!!
i manage to do it.
FFFFUUUUHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

now i'm so looking forward for my Dec term break.
haf alot in mind for de term break.
but can't decide where to go.
BUT!!!!
one thing for sure i juz can't wait for my April trip.
so looking forward for tat very day.
hahahaha.

tatz it thn.
i gotta go.
i wana rest.
toodleesssssss.

2008-08-21T21:50:00.002+08:00

today my day went ok.
not bad.
fun thou.

i was assisting Dr See toh for crown prep.
then was called up by Nurse Anne.
n she sent me up to lvl 6 wid Dr Chew Ming Tat.
for Ortho.

then Jannah got sent up to Dr Nora Heng.
for Perio.
n Lyn got sent up to Dr Christina Sim.
for Fixed Prostho.
yupz.
de 3 of us at lvl 6.

hmm.
attach wid Kasma.
can never be bored.
Ortho is like damn fast.
patient keep coming.
assisting Dr Chew was great.
fast n funny.

most consultant wud be bossy n annoying.
but not Dr Chew.
he's nice.
assisting him de whole day.
get to adapt to his way of work.
n he's funny.
hahaha.

de day end early for me.
at 5pm.
half an hour to end work,
i kinda survey Kasma's new hp.
LG touch screen.
i find it cool.
n nice.
but.
most people say it lags.

u never noe wat i did for tat half an hour.
i actuali teach Kasma how to use her new hp.
instead of she's de one who shud teach me n tell me more bout de phone.
end up i was de one who discover lotza things for.
hahahaha.

her's is a 3G phone.
n i actuali ask her if her front camera can take pictures.
n confidently said,"tk boleh ah.".
ok fine.

but sumhow my fingers are damn itchy.
n i try to survey it on my own.
n guess wat??
I MANAGE TO GET DE CAMERA TO TAKE PICTURES FRM IN FRONT.

she laugh damn loud n said,"eh mcm mane seh kau buat? ajar aku."
ok....
itz her new hp n i'm de one who discover it.
n tatz not it.
there's more.
i teach alot of things tat she dun even noe.
i told her,"Kas. nie hp kau tapi aku yg tau nie semua eh. puas ati aku pakai hp kau sudah."
all she do is juz laugh.
hmm.
n i make her pay me $25 for teaching her how to use her phone.

i can't help it but to reali laugh at her.
her slowness makes me disturb her more.
hahahaha.
so for Hari Raya i told her to gif me de money for my collection.
hahahaha.

well.
it was hilarious for me.
shud haf video de scene n post it.
itz funny.
hmm.

can't wait for DnD.
anxious for de big day.
woohoo!!!

ASSIGNMENTS!!!

2008-08-20T19:42:00.002+08:00

tis semester is kinda tight for me.
VERY!!!
full of projects.
test.
n my next exam is 2 weeks after Hari Raya.

haiz.
wat a luck!!!
can't reali celebrate my raya seh.
my brain gona be filled wid revision.

hmm.
but de good thing is,
during fasting month my OJT is not tat bz.
coz de Resident is having their term break.

but thn.
i mite never noe if they start throwing de TDSA at any level for under study.
coz during de term break most of de doctors are not around.
so we mite ending up doing nothing.
or doing housekeeping.

hmm.
tis semester reali kills me.
today Dr Ken Tan gave us lecture on Fixed Prosthodontic.
n he made us do project.
PRESENTATION people.
wah lioa!!!!

well.
Dr Toh Siew Lan project is processing.
itz due on de 5th Sep.
but Dr Ken Tan project due NXT WEEK!!!
tis Friday.
CHARTING TEST.

so....
Azedz.
wen u read tis i noe u gona say,
"good luck ah".

AARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can't wait till graduation!!!!!
sumone please!!!
tell me tat all of tis gona end very soon.
i mean VERY VERY SOON.

yikes!!!
i'm so stress up.
hmm.

updating

2008-08-17T17:15:00.003+08:00

been almost a week since i last update.
alot to type.
try my best to sum it up.

ok.
grandma stay till Friday.
then she went to my aunt house.
juz as i tot.
she ask wat i tot all along.
hahaha.

then....
my 2yr anni.
YES!!!
i noe sumone is waiting to noe tis.
well.
tis time we make it real simple.
nothing grand.
but Azedz scold me for not getting him aniting.

well.
i can't tink of aniting to gif him.
so i gif nothing.
hahahaha.

OF COURSE!!!
i felt guilty for not wishing tat sumone HAPPI BELATED 20th BIRTHDAY.
yup.
to Sha.
SORI LAH YE.
bukan lupe.
tapi da lame tk pakai comp.
malas ckit lah.
hahaha.

yup.
her bdae fall de same day as my anni.
so there's no way i can forget tat.
hope she had a nice bdae with her 'twin' bro.

de rest of my days seems pretty ok.
been going out wid him lately.
but as for de rest of tis week till Sunday,
i won't be seeing him.
as he will be working in de afternoon shift.
so...
itz sucks.

well.
doing my chores now.
so i got to go.
i need sum rest for tomoro.

P/S: i juz can't wait for DnD.
n to Kakak.
hahaha.
5 more days till ur big day.
woohoo!!!

de weekend

2008-08-08T19:53:00.002+08:00

at last.
itz Friday.
de day tat i'm waiting for.
yessah!!!

well.
whole day class.
topic so bored.
makes me asleep.
for like 30mins.
damn sleepy seh.

morning was ok.
but afternoon was bored.
topic on Anaesthesia.
Dr Shawn Goh was my lecturer.

sumhow i noe we cud be sleepy hearing him talk.
so he got tis funny video on Anaesthesia.
which help us a bit to keep us awake.
thn all went asleep again.

hmm.
wonder wat i do in weekend?
hmm.
well.
grandma sleeping over tonite till duno wen.
so got company while my stranger is gone.

yup.
he juz msg n tell me his off on his vacation.
wid de family.
if not tonite i'm off wid de family too.
but nope.
i decide not to go.

de last 2days he been picking me up.
was glad to see him getting better after de accident.
except for his left thumb.
still swollen.
but hoping it gets better soon.

hmm.
now miss him already.
but itz ok.
grandma be here soon.
so i can roughly think wat she gona ask me later wen she arrive.
hahaha.

aniwae.
since today eve of National Day.
my classmate n i wear red n white outfit.
to mark n symbolize how true Singaporean we are.
hahaha.
semangat seh.
but too bad no picture taken.
as i said today is boring n sleepy day.

not to mention.
got homework ah!!
weekend homework.
haiyo.
so weekend doesn't tat fun now.
hmm.

ok.
gtg.
waiting for grandma to arrive.

itz juz my luck

2008-08-05T21:00:00.002+08:00

*yawn*
hmm.
wen sumone haf an evil eye on u n say such jinx to u,
accept it wid a sincere heart.
n juz pray hard tat wat is said on u,
will hit back to de person who haf curse u.
hahaha.

for me i never care wat people say.
if they hate me n say things behind my back,
i would smile n accept it.
wat i learnt from my Ustazah last time was,
to accept de critics n curse that people say on us.
but deep down pray hard to Allah,
that 1 day that person get it back.
and at de same time.
wen u accept their say,
ALWAYS remember that de person who have say ill things to u,
will take ur sins aways.
bit by bit.

see.
isn't tat good?
tatz why sumtimes i like wen people talk bout me.
coz they take away my sin-s bit by bit.
hahahaha.

well.
my 2 days at work was tiring thou.
but....
i manage to make it on time to end my day at work EARLY.
hmm.
seems tat wen Anuri is not around i will be de substitute.

well.
i dun mind.
but itz a hell hard work man.
if i were to be permanent wid Dr Clement Eng,
i will lost my 'babats' away seh.
hahahaha.

btw,thanks to Dr Eng's mum for giving me curry puff.
she juz give it to me because Dr Eng noes how tired i am.
of course.
assisting him i will be standing.
if i sit tatz it!!
i can't see.
n i can't do de suction.
so i haf to stand n see clearly.

thks Dr Eng for being fast in doing ur job.
n thks for understanding tat i'm tired.
hahahaha.
still remember how he tried to piss me off after so long not assisting him.
i was piss of course.
then after 2 weeks today,
he manage to be himself again.

and tomoro.
CLASS.
most probably Nurse Saudha will be treating the DSA's lunch.
coz due to Nurses Day most of de doctors are treating us.
left Jennifer n Siti.
so to be fair Nurse Saudha is treating us.
but duno wat.

damn.
tired seh.
n i got to open my eyes big as i'm sitting rite in front.
yup.
new sitting plan.
okies.
nitez.

guilty it is

2008-08-03T21:13:00.003+08:00

almost a week.
n i didn't update tat much.
alot of things is happening.
duno where to start.

last few days celebrated Nurses's Day.
doctors treating their nurse wid lotza food.
party.
sweets.
cakes.
DAMN!!!
gaining those fats people!!!

hmm.
been going out wid de love.
Yatz n Azedz.
before i forget.
i manage to make Azedz watch Prom nite wid me.

hahahaha.
she paid $7.50 for closing her eyes.
n not watching.
itz juz a murder show n she react as thou itz a horror movie.
hahahaha.

not to mention.
a mountain tat Azedz make.
yup.
she drop de whole bag of popcorn in de theater.
it was hillarious.
but worth it.
so watz de next horror show?
shud ask her AGAIN.
beg her till she come!!!

well.
my weekend i slack.
slept thru de day.
do my stuff.
haiz.
n last nite.
i rush to see my stranger.

damn i feel guilty.
if i known he wud rush to see me.
i wudn't haf ask him to help me.
coz of me he met wid an accident.

yup.
an accident.
thank god it was minor.
i was shock wen he called.
n i cud sense sumting is wrong.

a scratch on his left thumb.
a swollen hump on his left thumb.
scratches on his right knee.
big swollen hump on his right ankle.

de moment i saw him i felt damn guilty.
i can't help but to control my feelings.
seeing him walking in a limp.
hurts me.
cudn't help i burst into tears.

tis is de second time he met wid an accident.
de second time wen i left him alone n let him do his things.
i can't bear to noe anything happen to him.
n itz all my fault.
even blogging now i'm thinking bout him.
i hope for speedy recovery for him.
rest well on ur 3 days MC.

please forgive me for letting u wori my wherabout.
if i didn't msg u things will not happen.
coz of me u rush to see me n met wid an accident.
TWICE!!!
i'm so blame for this.
i'm sorry precious.
blame me for ur hurt.
i'm so sorry.
please get well.

my question has been ANSWERED

2008-07-27T20:50:00.002+08:00

u cud haf say it earlier.
so i won't be hoping so much for u.
u cud haf tell me de truth.
so i won't be waiting for u.

u said wat u needed to.
but dun tink i can get it over wid easily.
my feelings is still strong.
n i'm putting on a smile for u.
but deep down u shatter me apart.

juz noe u're de only one.
coz tonite will be de nite i will fall for u.

great outing

2008-07-27T15:36:00.023+08:00

Friday went out wid de love.
went to Sakura International for dinner.

soon after shopping around Yatz got to go.
n so only left me n Azedz.

and i'm so glad i manage to get my DnD dress at last!!!
thanks to Cotton On.
n thanks to Azedz.
for de help.
*winkz*

yesterday went out again.
wid Azedz.
went to Sentosa.
had a great day.
so excited.
n we cam whoring alot.

had our dreams come true.
we went for a sky ride.
and LUGE!!!!

after so much fun our stomach got so hungry.
hurried down to Vivo n walk to Banquet.
where we had our delicious dinner.
Fried fish soup.
soon as after dinner Azedz went shopping.
we walk around.
n had our dessert to end our day.

our Saturday was well spend.
n looking forward for de next outing.
maybe bowling.
hmm.
hopefully.

sumthing is missing

2008-07-26T01:19:00.003+08:00

days passes by very fast.
yet our life remains de same.
hmm.

where exactly does it goes wrong?
why a sudden change?
why didn't u see we juz miss de old U?
wat makes u be distance towards us?

hmm.
well.
u didn't notice do u tat widout u around de atmosphere juz silent.
notice it!!
tat wen u are around de surrounding was great.
we hint u many times tat we miss u.
but why dun u get it?
n be upset for sumting or sumone whose not around wid us?
we juz wana be like de old times.
juz US.

open up ur eyes n see tat we still care for u.
n we truly miss u.
we need u back juz like de old times.
de laughter we had.
de crappy things we did.
de cam whoring we had.
we need u back OK!!

P/S: i juz wish tat stranger is wid me now. i wana talk crap!!!

answer please?

2008-07-20T00:37:00.001+08:00

when one sacrifice.

de other should too.

but wat if when one sacrifice and de other juz dun?

hmm.

life is full of complicated problems.

it juz need an answer to know wat went wrong.

be truthfull n there u got it.

but wat if one lies?

n avoid telling a good answer.

doesn't it makes more complicated to a question?

cheating is a wrong thing to do.

lying is bad way being in a relationship.

excuses on de other hand doesn't works at all.

confused.

complicated.

lost.

speechless.

i juz need an answer to everything that is happening.

an answer for me to realise that i got to stop wateva i'm doing nw.

an answer to know if i'm not belong to.

juz an honest answer n i be very contented.